Deja Vu

DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive

Possible overdose, substance unknown

Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight

He's intubated and we're bagging him now

BP 90 over palp

Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic

Has aspirated, GSC is 3

We'll update en route ETA ten minutes

As I fall deeper into a manic state

Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait

Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil then I salivate

Start off with the Nyquil like I'll think just have a taste

Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate

To a harder prescription drug called Valium like yah that's great

I go to just take one and I end up like having eight

Now I need something in my stomach 'cause i haven＇t ate

Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

And youd think that with all I have at stake look at my daughter's face

Mommy something is wrong with dad I think

He's acting weird again he＇s really beginning to scare me

Wont shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn＇t hear me

And all he does is eating dorritos and cheetos and he just

Fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don＇t know

Feels like I've been down this road before

So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do

But I cant, and I won＇t, say I try, but I know, that's a lie

cause I don＇t, and why, I just don＇t knowwoooo

Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer

Thats the devil in my ear I've been sober a ****** year

And that ****** still talks to me he's all I can ******* hear

Marshall c＇mon we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers

And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed

For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line

With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind

To have another half a glass of wine, sounds asinine

Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol

Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch Im bout to fall

I miss the couch and down I go, lookin' like a bouncy ball

**** must've knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all

Wow what the **** happened last night where am I

Man **** am I hungover and goddamn I

Got a headache **** half a vicodin, why cant I

All systems ready for take off, please stand by

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don＇t know

Feels like I've been down this road before

So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do

But I cant, and I won＇t, say I try, but I know, it＇s a lie

cause I don＇t and why I just don＇t knowwoooo

So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then ahhhhhh

Couple of weeks go by it aint even like I'm getting high

Now I need it just not to feel sick yah Im getting by

Wouldn＇t even be taking this **** if deshaun didn＇t die

Oh yeah there's an excuse you lose proof so you use

Theres new rules it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through

It's twelve-noon ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze

What else is new **** it what would Elvis do in your shoes

Now here I am three months later full-blown relapse

Just get high until the kids get home from school home relax

And since Im convinced that Im an insomniac

I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps

Just be able to function throughout the day

Let's see that's an ambien each nap how many Valium three

And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep

Okay, so now ya see the reason how come he

Has taken four years to just put out an album B

See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath

Cause that Chrismas you know that whole pneumonia thing

It was bologna was it the methadone ya think?

Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos?

Your VCR tape cases with your Ambien CR great places

To hide 'em aint it, so you can lie to Hailie

Im going beddy-bye Whitney baby good night Alaina

Go in the room and shut the bedroom door

And wake up in an ambulance they said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don＇t know

Feels like I've been down this road before

So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do

But I cant, and I won＇t, say I try, but I know, it＇s a lie

cause I don＇t and why I just don＇t knowwoooo

[00:01.37]DMC, we have a mid-thirties male found down, unresponsive

[00:05.12]Possible overdose, substance unknown

[00:07.68]Pulse is 60 and thready, respiration's eight

[00:10.69]He's intubated and we're bagging him now

[00:12.74]BP 90 over palp

[00:14.73]Patient is cool, pale, and diaphoretic

[00:17.01]Has aspirated, GSC is 3

[00:19.70]We'll update en route ETA ten minutes

[00:22.16]As I fall deeper into a manic state

[00:25.12]Im a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait

[00:28.76]Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

[00:31.15]I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil then I salivate

[00:34.56]Start off with the Nyquil like I'll think just have a taste

[00:37.54]Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate

[00:40.17]To a harder prescription drug called Valium like yah that's great

[00:43.20]I go to just take one and I end up like having eight

[00:45.93]Now I need something in my stomach 'cause i haven＇t ate

[00:48.98]Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

[00:51.71]And youd think that with all I have at stake look at my daughter's face

[00:55.30]Mommy something is wrong with dad I think

[00:57.63]He's acting weird again he＇s really beginning to scare me

[01:00.41]Wont shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn＇t hear me

[01:03.19]And all he does is eating dorritos and cheetos and he just

[01:06.04]Fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat

[01:08.66]

[01:09.08]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don＇t know

[01:12.03]Feels like I've been down this road before

[01:14.72]So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me

[01:18.12]As soon as I go home and close the door

[01:20.55]Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do

[01:25.44]But I cant, and I won＇t, say I try, but I know, that's a lie

[01:28.96]cause I don＇t, and why, I just don＇t knowwoooo

[01:31.94]Maybe just a nice cold brew, whats a beer

[01:34.18]Thats the devil in my ear I've been sober a ****** year

[01:36.95]And that ****** still talks to me he's all I can ******* hear

[01:39.78]Marshall c＇mon we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers

[01:42.90]And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed

[01:45.61]For half of the time, who's the mastermind behind that little line

[01:48.94]With that kind of rationale, man, I got half a mind

[01:51.58]To have another half a glass of wine, sounds asinine

[01:54.03]Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol

[01:57.19]Ouch look out for the wall aim for the couch Im bout to fall

[02:00.27]I miss the couch and down I go, lookin' like a bouncy ball

[02:02.72]**** must've knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all

[02:06.07]Wow what the **** happened last night where am I

[02:08.63]Man **** am I hungover and goddamn I

[02:11.51]Got a headache **** half a vicodin, why cant I

[02:14.31]All systems ready for take off, please stand by

[02:17.18]

[02:17.56]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don＇t know

[02:20.59]Feels like I've been down this road before

[02:23.30]So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me

[02:26.53]As soon as I go home and close the door

[02:29.08]Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do

[02:34.02]But I cant, and I won＇t, say I try, but I know, it＇s a lie

[02:37.13]cause I don＇t and why I just don＇t knowwoooo

[02:39.65]

[02:39.90]So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then ahhhhhh

[02:42.72]Couple of weeks go by it aint even like I'm getting high

[02:45.44]Now I need it just not to feel sick yah Im getting by

[02:48.33]Wouldn＇t even be taking this **** if deshaun didn＇t die

[02:51.24]Oh yeah there's an excuse you lose proof so you use

[02:54.98]Theres new rules it's cool if it's helpin' you to get through

[02:56.86]It's twelve-noon ain't no harm in self-inducin' a snooze

[02:59.64]What else is new **** it what would Elvis do in your shoes

[03:02.61]Now here I am three months later full-blown relapse

[03:05.55]Just get high until the kids get home from school home relax

[03:08.57]And since Im convinced that Im an insomniac

[03:11.23]I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps

[03:14.03]Just be able to function throughout the day

[03:16.12]Let's see that's an ambien each nap how many Valium three

[03:19.70]And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep

[03:22.29]Okay, so now ya see the reason how come he

[03:25.32]Has taken four years to just put out an album B

[03:28.17]See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath

[03:31.07]Cause that Chrismas you know that whole pneumonia thing

[03:33.97]It was bologna was it the methadone ya think?

[03:36.77]Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos?

[03:39.30]Your VCR tape cases with your Ambien CR great places

[03:42.55]To hide 'em aint it, so you can lie to Hailie

[03:45.32]Im going beddy-bye Whitney baby good night Alaina

[03:48.17]Go in the room and shut the bedroom door

[03:50.31]And wake up in an ambulance they said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn

[03:53.71]

[03:54.13]Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don＇t know

[03:57.66]Feels like I've been down this road before

[04:00.39]So lonely and cold it＇s like something takes over me

[04:03.63]As soon as I go home and close the door

[04:06.17]Kinda feels like déjà vu I wanna get away from this place I do

[04:11.03]But I cant, and I won＇t, say I try, but I know, it＇s a lie

[04:13.98]cause I don＇t and why I just don＇t knowwoooo

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